I am writing a book based on my own lived experience within the Bristol City Care system. It is a book broken down into subsections and parts. That include Life Circumstance, Police, Courts & Legislation, Mental Health & Well-Being, and Therapy. It is a presently a work in progress and I will update this page when it is ready for release. As it is based on my experience it wont be released until the legal side of my journey is finished. Which will be hopefully in the very near future.

The book discusses life circumstance, as this is distinct and different for all abuse survivors. In this section, I describe my own life circumstance. I provide details of my abuse, placements, and ages etc. I also talk about the type of support system, and economic background I was born into. How all of these things interrelate with each other to create a circumstance, that is often out of ones control.

The Police, Courts, & Legislation section discusses the Journey through reporting to the police, & getting to court or not. Where I talk about my own experience of interviews with police, and the outcomes of my cases. I also discuss legislation, when building cases involving abuse of children in foster care, and how this can impact outcomes.

I talk about the mental health impacts. I share my own personal experience of mental health triggers. How these affected me throughout different stages of my age, and age related understanding.

I also discuss how I gained access to therapy. As I struggled to gain access to specialist trauma therapy through the NHS services. Which made recovery harder, and longer than it already was, and also had financial significance.

Each section I chose are important aspects of experiencing and managing the reality of living with childhood sexual abuse. I also added some relevant literature on the topic on CSA, and the care of foster children. I wrote this book because I do not support the silencing of child abuse. I want to tell my story and raise awareness on what I know happens behind closed doors. I want to normalize speaking about trauma and abuse experiences. Victims of abuse should not feel like a taboo in society, we are a man made anomaly. A representation of human flaw, through no fault of our own.